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yTitle says all about my day.
Mommy found out I've been throwing up my food, don't judge me based on the fact that I'm bulimic. I will keel you<3
Now she wants to send me to some "group for teens" who have problems, I really don't think it's a problem. I know what I am doing, but Leah and Derek both say I have a problem. Maybe so...but I don't really want to stop. Not now at least.
Derek and I got into a fight, I guess you could say. I just kind of asked him a question and it escalated from there. I don't really have a clue what I'm going to do. haha. If he breaks up with me because of something like that, then...I'll get over it eventually. =[ . I didn't really expect for it to turn out like that, the conversation, but that is what you get for doasibdausabf. <=== secret sentence. I bet you wish you knew what I meant. It's not going to be easy getting over the love of my life...and Im talking in general. I don't want the day to come where he finds out that I'm not the one he wants.
Mike called. Nuff said. I hate him.
I have been listening to the Jonas Brothers a lot. I really love Nick, he has the most adorable voice I've ever heard. I love hearing him sing!
Here is part of one of my favorite songs by them.

If the heart is always searching can you ever find your home
 I've been looking for that someone
I can make it on my own
Dreams can take the place you never knew there's gotta be a million reasons why it true
When you look me in the eyes
and tell me the you love me every things alright
when you're right here by my side
 when you look me in the eyes
 I catch a glimpse of heaven I will find my paradise
 when you look me in the eyes.


I made this quiz.
Take it<3
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=061027161742-513759&
                  

Wow.
I am really pissed off. I don't understand how my parents and brothers can live without doing anything. I wanted to go see a movie, do anything...I'm sick and tired of being in the house. I just want to go out and DO SOMETHING.
I don't even know why I'm so irritated, oh wait, yeah I do. It's because I never fucking ask to go anywhere and the one time that I do they tell me no?! Are they serious? Who the fuck do they think they are?

Haha, no I'm not a primadonna, I just get really angry. You would to if you were cooped up all the time. I don't have the money to buy my own movie ticket. It is just really starting to get ridiculous. At least someone can continue to make me laugh, of course hahaha. He is one of the only people that can talk to me when I'm pissed off, everyone else I snap at and want to beat the shit out of. Like uh my mom and my brother.


FUCK YOU!

What's up, mang?
Lovely little woman called again and is harassing me. I love how she's calling on restricted numbers...like I won't know it's her. Hahaha. Pathetic? Yeah.
So, I got yet another costume. It's my third one, <3. I like to wear different costumes for different parties, sue me, but anyways... it is a Beer Garden Girl. It is really short, I think I might have to wear leggings underneath, it barely covers my ass.
I'm talking to a boy that I adore.
[:Derek:]
[:ily:]
Hm... I had a great day. Ate muffins and got what I always wanted.
Oh yeah, and I went to Taco Bell, saw Courtney and Alysa.


So...there is this girl, lets call her "Jane" and I really like her. She always listens to me, shes so nice and we've been friends for awhile. So..."Jane" I love you<3 Bee eff eff.

Ahhh. My first journal entry and my fingertips are seering off because I'm anxious.  So anxious.  What to write? Do I want people to know all of my trouble?  All of my problems?   Yes.  Yes, I do.  Today was a pretty amazing day, in fact, it started off amazing. I picked up T.J and we went to Denny's for breakfast.  We ended up thirty minutes late for class, but it was worth it.  My friends and I hung out in study hall and traded homework for cookies, something we do too often.  "Keane, I have oatmeal raisin. Your favorite."  I think I drooled on Dana that morning.... Gym was fun, haha, we are doing archery and the exchange student. Christian keeps acting like Robin Hood, and he calls me Maid Marion.  I met a new friend, Harmonizzle, and she is beautiful. She wanted to get in Christians pants, but I think she blew it when she said "Do you speak German?", no Harmony babe, he just lives there!  Conk let us girls hang out in the bathroom and warm up our hands...I think that we complained more than we shot..  This is actually kind of soothing, writing everything down. Anyways, after school Richie drove Nik and I  to dance class,  we learned a new routine to "Coming Undone Remix- Korn featuring Dem Franchise Boyz." Blahhh, then it went down hill. It was my mommy's birthday and I drove up to walmart and bought her flowers and decorated the house, bought her some gifts because I knew for sure my dad wouldn't remember and called up my brothers to remind them to wish her a happy birthday. She thanked me by calling me ungrateful....YET AGAIN. And then my dad proceeding to kick me out, hahaha. No people, I'm not joking.  I think that they will probably change their minds, considering my dad is a waste of spermmm. My grandma is coming up for a week though, which should be fun. I'm safe with her there....I cross my fingers that my dad will go back into rehab, he really needs to get his act together.   It's hard dealing with it, but I have a lot of amazing people that keep me keepin' on.
Um, Derek ?!
Ha.Ha.
T.J took me to McDonalds, yes, how romantic. I need to meet rich kids that take me out for Lobster...I guess this whole 'let's be friends' things is working out really well. I've never really met a guy that could just not try and get in my pants? It's refreshing, I haven't had that kind of guy since Nick died.

I think I just wrote ya'll a book....Sorry


"And you still don't have the right look, and you don't have the right friends. Nothing changes but the faces, names and trends. High School Never Ends."